Trying

OK, haven't blogged in a while but I am feeling super extra-bitter right now. Why is it that a certain guy I like, wh knows I like him and am extrememly jealous, seems to go out of his way to flirt with other girls in front of me? I'm probably just oversensitive and paranoid, but still. GRR, and I'm at a fucking wedding, I can't cry now, I'm trying though. I'm trying to not cry, not get so jealous, not like such a fucking asshole, not be so oversensitive and paranoid. But it's hard. GRR, and I feel bad for the girls because I HATE them by default, and that is really not fair at all, I don't even KNOW them. What to do? What to do? Kill me Now