Stop it! Bad Girl!

Turn Back Now! Mother! Yes my mother has been reading my blog! I Say STOP! Me: Mom: Me: Mom: Me: Mom: Me: Yeah. See how mad you make me mom? Stop reading!

Ok. Time for seriousness.

Ok. So. There are people that say we should stand by George Bush and America or we're terrorists. There are people that say we should oppose our country and president because what we are doing makes us terrorists. I personally say that none of us are terrorists. We are quite simply, obviously, human. Hello? Duh. But what does our species have to do with anything? Well, the fact that we are human is why we do anything. What would you do if someone badmouthed your family? Would you stand by or do something about it. If you said you wouldn't do anything about it you either really hate your family or you're not human. Well nevertheless George Bush was acting on that similar human act. Its one of those 'I can make fun of my family but if you try, you die' things. I don't know, maybe not everyone takes so much pride in their family. It just seems wrong to me not to defend and help your family. Anyway, I am just trying to say that while yes, George Bush made a mistake, it was not because he is a bad man. It is because he is human. Now I am not saying I am pro or anti war. I personally am not going to tell anyone because there is no point in it. I am 13. I cannot vote. I am just saying what I think of this its the presidents fault nonsense. He is a president. He has to be elected by someone. Who do you think elected him? And not only that. We elected him twice. It is not all his fault. It is Americas fault. That's me, George Bush, and probably anyone reading this. Yes that means you, American citizen. I believe we have all been in a similar situation as George Bush. Hasn't everyone dug themselves a grave so deep that they can't get out? We are all prone to error. Granted some errors are larger than others. But no matter what at a certain point you can't go back. You are subject to your own storm. You have created a monster and there is nothing you can do. Its the point of no return. You just have to ride it out. Now I am not saying that I do not care for all those human lives. I do care. But we must understand the reason for everything. One of those if you can spot the cancer at an early stage, you have a good chance of survival. If you spot the cause you can stop the effect. We should take this nightmare as a learning experience and think harder about all of our choices. I know it is hard, especially if you have lost someone in the war. But we must learn and move on. Would you want to repeat this war again? With all of the horrors and human costs? Now it is all too late to scold Bush. We are sooo past that. If you oppose to Bush just hope 2008 comes as quickly as possible. If you do not oppose him then chill. Let the other humans alone! They are entitled to there opinion! And another thing! No more of this "I want to kill Bush!" nonsense. Think about it! You are pissed of because of the human lives he is costing us so you want to take another life! You should be ashamed of yourself! And if you are upset about the money that has gone into the war more than the human life then I am incredibly confused. If you want to kill Bush and you are also opposed to the death penalty (don't laugh I've heard of it) then I am very confused. Can you please send me some sort of chart that measures the amount of human lives due to the amount of human lives killed? Something that says, you know, 500,000 lives = 1 life, 2 lives if one of the 500,000 is a personal friend of yours. I don't know. I am very confused. I am aware that this post is very hypocritical. No one reads my blog so I feel relatively safe writing this. I feel like a mother scolding a couple of bad children. Don't make me do this again America!

Haha

haha. Ok I am soo better now. Not about my mom. But about my 'friends'. Yeah. I can suck it up. People always think I'm high. I'm not. I just get overly bubbly to hide my feelings. It works but its a bad habit and its killing me inside. I am grinning as I am writing this. what does that say about me? Ok I am trying to type without looking at the keyboard. Hey I typed 'keyboard' without any mistakes. I am so proud. I think I am going to start meditating. It sounds fun. I have a spider bite on my leg. It hurts like hell and is turning black.. Thats probably nothing good yeah?

Please don't cry at my funeral.

I am buried. alive. I have been buried alive. Partly by myself. I dug the hole. I three-way called my best friend and the guy I like to see what my best friend thinks of my most recent crush and yeah... It could not be more obvious that they liked each other and I can't just say to my best friend 'No! You can't have him! I like him!' That would be incredibly all too selfish. I feel uninspired. And now that I'm the one that introduced them they find it impossibleto talk to each other without me on the line giving them conversation starters. I haven't heard from either one of them in almost 5 hours now so I'm hoping that either means 1)one of them lost interest or 2) they now realize its possible for them to talk to each other without me there to realize how perfect they actually would be together. So yeah. Really bad day. Moms not being at all helpful so nothing new there. She always says shes very supportive and such a good mother and all angelic and then is the bitch from hell when it counts.

bitch from hell n.General term. Refers to mothers everywhere. Mine in particular. Has an uncanny nack for making children be all too eager to endure death by torture. Satan flees before it. Cannot be killed.

Why do mothers think that all problems can be solved through hard labor. i hate her. i hate them. i hope they all die now!!!!............... goodnight bitches.

So...

He called... I am very happy... Took a while to come down from the high though... Had to take loads of personality quizzes and listen to music while dancing in front of my mirror and call my ex. He's fine by the way. Here I'll share some of my personality quiz results so that you can look into my psyche. Oh and just to let you know you should probably highlight them otherwise some won't show up... I was just thinking, noone cares.

You Are Seductive Flirt

Smoldering hot, you don't really flirt. You seduce.For you, flirting is just foreplay. You don't flirt unless it's going somewhere.You have one goal in mind when you flirt... And you usually get it!

What Kind of Flirt Are You?

You are

What Rejected Crayon Are You?

Your Aura is Red

You have a high level of emotion. This can mean passion, but it can also mean rage.Usually, you don't take these emotions out on others. You just use them as motivation - and it works! The purpose of your life: embracing all the wonders of the life, lots of travels, and tons of adventures Famous reds include: Madonna, Marilyn Monroe, Jennifer Lopez Careers for you to try: Dancer, Boxer, Surgeon

What Color Is Your Aura?

Your 2005 Song Is

Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day "My shadow's the only one that walks beside me My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating" In 2005, you bummed everyone out. Like you care.

What Hit Song of 2005 Are You?

You Are An ENTP

The Visionary You are charming, outgoing, friendly. You make a good first impression.You possess good negotiating skills and can convince anyone of anything.Happy to be the center of attention, you love to tell stories and show off.You're very clever, but not disciplined enough to do well in structured environments. You would make a great entrpreneur, marketing executive, or actor.

What's" Your Personality Type?

Your Love Number is 1

You tend to be a stubborn lover, holding your ground in every argumentYou take your time falling in love. You aren't the type to lose perspective.You are loyal (to a fault), and you require the same loyalty in your sweetheart.At your best, you are a wise and inspiring partner - who sticks around.

What Is Your Love Number?

Your Love Element Is Fire

In love, you are a true listener and totally present.For you, love is all about feeling more alive than you've ever felt. You attract others with your joy and passion.Your flirting style is defined by your strong ability to communicate. Fun and play are the cornerstones of your love life.And while your flame may burn too brightly, it's part of your appeal. You connect best with: Wood Avoid: Water You and another Fire element: will likely burn out quickly

What Element Is Your Love?

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as driven and ambitious. Overall, your true self is passionate and physical. With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react. In love, you seem like a huge flirt. In stressful situations, you seem cheerful and optimistic.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

What Temperment Are You?

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"It's probably just a rash."

What Will Your Famous Last Words Be?

Your Personality Profile

You are sexy, powerful, and bold.You're full of passion and energy...Sometimes this passion has a dark side. You feel most alive when you're seducing someone.You never fail to get someone's attention.Quick minded, you're also quick to lose your temper!

The World's Shortest Personality Test

Your Pimp Name Is...

Pimptress Dazzle

What's" Your Pimp Name?

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have high extroversion.You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!" Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness.You're generally good at balancing work and play.When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have medium agreeableness.You're generally a friendly and trusting person.But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.You get along well with others, as long as they play fair. Neuroticism: You have high neuroticism.It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed.You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully.You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high.In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

You Passed 8th Grade Math

Congratulations, you got 10/10 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Math?

Your Power Color Is Gold

At Your Highest: You are engrossed in passions that mentally stimulate you. At Your Lowest: You seek thrills and neglect what's important in your life. In Love: You see dating as adventure and approach it with an open attitude. How You're Attractive: You passion for life makes others passionate about you. Your Eternal Question: "Am I Having Fun?"

What's" Your Power Color?

You Belong in 1981

If you scored... 1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in! 1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too. 1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all! 1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day. 1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

What Year Do You Belong In?

Your Linguistic Profile:

45% General American English

20% Dixie

20% Yankee

10% Upper Midwestern

0% Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

You Are a Licorice Jelly Bean

You are an acquired taste. The less people fight your strange ways, the more they like them.

What Flavor Jelly Bean Are You?

Ok that was fun. Thanks for sticking with me through all that.

Conversations

Mom: You must be bipolar... Me: I Must be 13... Mom: Yes that's it. Blame it on your age. Me: Fine I will! Mom: OMG I am so proud of you. Me: What? Mom: You are just so amazing. Me: Now who's bipolar? Me: Why the hell didn't you call me? Certain Unnamed Male: I don't know. Me (ever so delicately, slightly annoyed): What the hell do you mean you don't know?! Certain Unnamed EVER SO SLIGHTLY ANNOYING male: I don't know. Me (DEFINATELY more that ever so slightly annoyed): You know what? You don't know anything do you? Certain Unnamed EVER SO SLIGHTLY ANNOYING male: *pathetically sobs* I am so sorry! Please find it in your heart to forgive me! Me: Beg. Certain Unnamed Male: Please. Please! Me: No... Tell me I'm pretty. Certain Unnamed Male: You're pretty! More than pretty! You are gorgeous! Breathtaking! Captivating! Please don't kill me or do any harm to my manhood! Me (feeling slightly better after castrating him): Go to hell! Certain Unnamed Male Who Had Better Learned Never To NOT Call Me And Is Currently Burning: *sobs pathetically* Me, Beautiful, Victorious: HA-HA-HA-HA-HA-HA-HA-HA-HAAAA. Me, Beautiful: Ha Me: Ha Me Again: I had way too much fun with that. *giggles*

Somethings wrong.

Somethings obviously wrong with me. Why am I upset that he didn't call? And if I was why didn't I just call him? Somethings wrong. I'm acting all girlish and shit. I have never been like this and I don't plan on starting now. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him... I want him... I want him. I want him. I want him. But no. I hate him. Yes I hate him.

Annoyed. Very much so.

Ok. I am annoyed. Very much so. I am very much so annoted..... I think. He didn't call. That mofo didn't call. Ah well... Never really liked him anyway. Jerk.

Ok. I am better now.

Ok. I am better now. I am clearly a slave to the almighty mood swing. I had a heart to heart with my mom last night and I feel so much better. It was very possible that she was bullshitting her way through it. I hope not. Brians supposed to call me today... :D

Crying. I am worthless.

Hello. I am crying now. I went to a therepist today. I was already mad at my mom. I was silent when she was talking. And pretty silent afterwards. My mom caught on. She said she felt as if I was nonverbally asking her "What are you still doing here?" So she got up and left. I felt terrable about it but at least I would be able to get my feelings out. I said things in there I know I should not have said. Even saying that if mom ever found out some of my thought and opinions and such I would never be able to forgive myself because it would hurt her too badly. I should have put two and two together. I heard every word the group right before us said. My mom said she even tried to go into the stairwell but she could still hear. I said things that I wish I didn't. My mom called me down a little while ago and asked if I liked her at all. I had never really thought about it and I am afraid to think about it now because I may not like the answer. She said she felt like I didn't. She said for the past couple of days I had been looking at her like "Ugh." I am ashamed that I have felt this way as I have. How could I. I need to be destroyed. I love my mom even if I don't. I feel terrible. How could I have said those things. Life will never be the same again. She knows now some of the things that I feel. She says she is over it but I know she is not. Am I doomed to complete the rest of mylife in shadow? The both of us never feeling truly happy? This is just like me. Fucking everything up. I wish I could just die. I wish I could kill myself but I know that I cannot because mom would feel like it was her fault. I wish everyone would just forget about me so that I could remove myself from this earth. My name, Ms.Stake. Suits me very well. I must have been a mistake because I know that god would not let someone like me onto this earth on purpose. I am a horrible person. I can't kill myself because then my mom would think its her fault. I am doomed to live with those feelings I am so ashamed of and bring those that I love down with me. I need to be destroyed.

Hello. I am Ecstatic.

Hello. I am Ms.Stake. I am ecstatic. I like someone. A boy. Named Brian. I asked someone something. A girl. My friend. Named Lauren. To get me his phone#. I asked my friend Lauren to get me Brians phone#. Apparently she gave him mine. Through what course of events I do not know. He called. Me. He called me. He is having a party. He asked. Me. If I would like to come. To the party. That he is having. Brian asked me to come to the party he is asking. I mean throwing. I am overloading. I can't think. Straight. I can't think straight because I am Ecstatic. About the party. I am going. To the party. Yes. Most definately I am going to the party.